It’s the same old story for so many of us middle-aged women – we get our weight “under control” then we hit menopause and suddenly we are completely out of control of the crazy things happening to our bodies. The hormones go nuts, we gain weight just making the grocery list, and don’t even get me started on my personal heatwaves. Ugh! Then, as if all of this isn’t bad enough, we are inundated by ads and posts about how easy and fun weight-loss can be. Seriously? Who has ever enjoyed weight-loss? Okay, perhaps if I could lose 50lbs on Nutrisystem and be assured of a multi-million dollar endorsement deal for the next ten years, I could find some enjoyment in that. But FUN?? No way!
Confession time: My name is Lori and I am a foodie, and a foodaholic. I use food for enjoyment, stress-relief, to fill my loneliness, and to”give joy” to those I love. Food hasn’t been about sustenance for me for quite sometime. And, I know I’m not alone in this. Show of hands how many are in the boat beside me?
Okay, so it won’t be fun. That has to be okay for awhile. Because I weigh more now then I did before giving birth both times! Now that’s a totally embarrassing tidbit to share, but hey, did I mention this would be raw and honest? I wear nothing but stretchy waistbands and tent-like tops. I’m only 52 and I’m desperately ashamed and fed-up with the awful feelings that come with walking past a mirror. And, I’m done.
My goal is not to be skinny or some sort of body builder. My goal is to be happy and comfortable in my skin. From this day forward, I will show love for the body God gave me. I will feed it healthy, life-sustaining foods. I will get some exercise every single day. And, every time I feel lonely, stressed, sad, or any other way that makes me want to head to the kitchen (other than truly hungry), I will try to pickup a pen and write instead. That’s my commitment for today. I’ll let you know how it goes. And, I’d love to hear from you.